I was being a bad boy that day. I didn't tell you I had a boyfriend I was madly in love with. I'd been with him, Brad, for almost 3 years when I met you. I was happy in the relationship, but I was afraid that I had become committed too early. I guess I wanted to make sure I wasn't settling down too fast. I met you that day and I had a great time. I'll never forget you were one of the first people that understood my vision when I explained it. I remember I moved you to tears with that a post of mine. I thought you were awesome. I still do actually.
I don't know if you noticed, but I got pretty quiet on the ride home that night we hung out. I had received a strange text from Braddlee as we were driving. I started thinking about the email conversation you and I were having. I couldn't remember whether or not I had closed the window on the computer. I could sense that I left it open, and Braddlee's strange text confirmed it. All I wanted to do was apologize to Braddlee for what I had done.
I completely shut down from talking to daddies after that. Being given the opportunity for Braddlee to take me back after I broke his heart meant too much to lose. We remain great friends to this day, but him and I aren't together anymore. We agreed that a long distance relationship was not good for either of us.
I should have hit you up and let you know about my situation, but I was too ashamed. It's fucked up because you were a good friend. You and I would probably be great friends to this day had we stayed in contact. I hope you read this letter and consider my offer to hang out sometime maybe grab a coffee or something. It'd be fun to catch up. Leave a comment and I'll send you my email address.
Hope to hear from you...
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